So right now I'm going to crack open my head and let you see what's on the inside,believe me you might not want to read on =O
So this past Saturday was like the best day ever. I got to see my friends from church in the morning [Mission trip pancake thingy] and the got to a Lacrosse game[GO HALEIGH!] I didn't understand what was going on at all. And to put a proverbial 'Cherry on top' I got to Ruggerfest and see Zach play rugby [for like five seconds but whatever] and we talked for a really long time. I didn't think he'd want to talk to me in front of his friends but he did and it made me all happy. Justin was there too,they were both pretty surprised that we showed up.
Rugby is fierce and kinda scary,but so much fun to watch. The were like taking each other and running around,it was all very exciting. I don't think I'll ever be able to go to a boring old football game ever again.
I wish I had the guts to just sit down and tell Zach about my brother. It's just too weird that we were in the same kind of situation. His brother lived but,he knows what I went through.Theres just a really weird connection that I can't let go,I just need to tell him. But, everytime I play it out in my head I sound stupid and I'm afraid bringing it up will bring back bad memories for him...I really don't want to do that. I guess I'll just have to see how it all plays out tomorrow,let's hope it goes well.
And oh gosh,I almost forgot to tell you.Remember the guy I liked? Caleb..the one who never e-mailed me back cause he got a girlfriend. I just spoke to him and she's not his girlfriend at all and now he's all flirty again =P. Yeah I still want Zach a lot more but, what the heck am I supposed to do about this?
Life is alright right now,I'm still in a small state of depression,I'm still just struggling to get through each day but I think I'm getting better.Let's hope I 'm getting better. I guess the dollar bill says it best 'In God we trust' cause really He's the last thing I can trust in.
~Aurora
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I LOVE YOU KARA (: And I really really hope this isn't weird to say, but I can tell you're SO much more mature these days, and I'm proud of you. :)))) My wittle Kara is growing up.
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy for you and Zach, I hope you can at least be friends for a long time. Just remember that no matter what, he's just a guy, and he can't define YOU. You have to be who YOU are and just let him sit back and put on his sunglasses for fear of overexposure to awesomeness.
P.S. When you're madly in love. Write me once in awhile, kay? ;]