Friday, July 31, 2009

Life..Love..and the Pusuit of happiness

So right now My brother is getting ready to go to Florida for nine days and I'm getting ready for Rock The River. I know Rock The River will be AMAZING but, I'm still kinda of scared of going downtown with my youth group..Guess I'll just have to suck it up or find a tazer XD.

So right now I guess my life could be described by the song 'Show me What I'm looking for'(Carolina Liar) 'Cause right now I'm super confused about everything and I really want some answers.
Question one, Just Why? Why? Why? why? why?
Simple enough,Right? Wrong.
I want to know most of all what God thinks of me.
Then comes the female part of me wondering what guys are thinking. I mean seriously why is everyone so scared of letting people know what they think? Though I can't really blame them I just want to know,you know?

I've started wondering about self-harm, not that I would do it just wondering if i would help. Which I have concluded to a 'NO' Cuz then I'd have my parents and brother on my back about it and stuff. But I really need some way to get this out and I HATE crying so that isn't the answer. I also find it hard talking to others about my feelings (Big surprise,Right?] So it's like I have to keep it bottled up but, I scared about what'll happen when the pressure becomes unbarable and I explode..

I have alot to think about and I'm guessing you're getting quiet bored with my rambling so I bid you adu.

Signed a very confused,
~Aurora~

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